Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Monday, December 27, 2010
Ouidad :Curly Hair Products to Enhance & Treat Your Natural Curls
If you are struggling with unmanageable curls Ouidad hair salons have expertise in cutting, caring for, and styling curly hair of all textures and lengths. The costs range from $90-$200 but it's worth the money. Their bestseller is Ouidad Climate Control gel.
This gets rid of frizz – even in high humidity – plus, your curls stay smooth.
For more than 30 years Ouidad has been studying, treating, styling and educating curly-haired clients in her Manhattan (and now Santa Monica) salons. Her years of hands-on experience with every imaginable curl type led to the development of an award winning product line and the creation of trademarked cutting and styling techniques for which her salons are now known.
Every stylist at the Ouidad salons has undergone extensive training with a focus on the key aspects of curl care. Trained under Ouidad, they are masters of the Carve & Slice method of cutting and skilled in Ouidad Salon styling and finishing techniques. Stylists are also experts regarding the Ouidad products
with extensive knowledge of formulations, application and product recommendation.
Check out these BEFORE and AFTER photos. You can decide which products are for you by using the curl profiler.
You can call to set up an appointment at 212-888-3288. ********************************************************************************
Sephora had a sale on Ouidad products. I bought a few. Hopefully it works as well as people preach it does!
I will do a review of these products soon!
This gets rid of frizz – even in high humidity – plus, your curls stay smooth. For more than 30 years Ouidad has been studying, treating, styling and educating curly-haired clients in her Manhattan (and now Santa Monica) salons. Her years of hands-on experience with every imaginable curl type led to the development of an award winning product line and the creation of trademarked cutting and styling techniques for which her salons are now known.Every stylist at the Ouidad salons has undergone extensive training with a focus on the key aspects of curl care. Trained under Ouidad, they are masters of the Carve & Slice method of cutting and skilled in Ouidad Salon styling and finishing techniques. Stylists are also experts regarding the Ouidad products
with extensive knowledge of formulations, application and product recommendation.Check out these BEFORE and AFTER photos. You can decide which products are for you by using the curl profiler.
You can call to set up an appointment at 212-888-3288. ********************************************************************************
Sephora had a sale on Ouidad products. I bought a few. Hopefully it works as well as people preach it does!
I will do a review of these products soon!
Are Dominican Blowouts Healthy?
There are many advantages to getting a Dominican blowout and dominican hairstylists have gained increasing popularity here in the US. Many Black women and women of other nationalities with fine to coarse curly hair have been very pleased with their results.
Dominican hairstylists usually use really big rollers in order to minimize the time the customer spends inside the hair dryer. Also this helps the hair come out straighter and less curly since the hair is not being spun around the roller as many times. Using large rollers helps people with short hair because it comes out straighter and it suffers less heat damage.
Dominican hairstylists use a blowdryer most of the time to straighten the customers hair instead of a flat iron or other straightening tool. This can take anywhere from 30mins.to 1 hr. depending on your hair length and texture. Meaning that the hair may suffer from heat damage.
When I used to get my hair done at the Dominican hairsalons it would always have many split ends from brushing it so much while styling. When I stopped going to the salon my hair I did not have not one split end. Also it would get dry from exposing it so much to the heat from the blower and hair dryer for such long periods of time. I recommend leaving some special leave in conditioner or other moisturizing hair product in. Moreover the constant pulling from the round comb would break my hair. Dominican hair salon stylists are known for pulling hair. This caused me to have broken hairs along my hairline that naturally would not occur.
If you like to let your hair naturally curly constantly getting it straightened whether with a perm of simply with a blow dryer WILL damage your natural curl pattern. Something to think about. Dominicans are good at getting hair pin straight but NOT managing curly hair. That is not what Dominican hairstylists are experts at.
For many years I never understood why my hair didn't curl as much as other Spanish girls when it was wet. I had never gotten a perm, my mother never allowed me to. Something I realized when I stopped going to Dominicans hairstylists is that for the first time I had to learn how to manage my natural hair. It was a bit tricky at first but over the years I have found the best way to treat my hair. My hair became curly as opposed to wavy as a result of this, because it grew into its natural hair pattern. Also I learned how to best define my natural hair pattern using Dominican hair products that are made from natural fruits and scents such as coconut, avocado, rosemary, cinammon...etc. Also I quickly learned that Garnier Fructisse is my best friend. Nothing helps detangle my hair faster than Garnier.
Many Dominican hairstylists from my experience frown at natural curly wet hairstyles saying it will damage the hair but I would rather leave some quality leave in conditioner or moisturizer in my hair and let it dry naturally than go to the salon.
So are Dominican blowouts healthy? It depends, if you go too often it can cause heat damage from extended exposure to high temperature.There are issues such as breakage, damage to natural hair pattern, dryness, split ends, and many more.
I almost forgot to mention this, for the women with very coarse hair going to a Dominican hair stylist would be better for you than using a hot comb, and a perm. It is more healthy to let your hair dry with rollers under a dryer and no perm. I would definitely recommend a Dominican hair stylist if straight hair is what you are going for. Lastly, to have straight hair you don't need a perm. Many women with coarser hair realize this after going to a Dominican hairstylist for the first time and seeing there hair become manageable, tidy, and behaving without the use of a hot comb, or perm.
The Dominican blowout is a fairly new thing which started when blowdryers came out. Before then Dominican women would wrap their hair in rollers, keep them in until they would dry naturally. Their hair still managed to have bounce, body, and be healthy.
Dominican hairstylists usually use really big rollers in order to minimize the time the customer spends inside the hair dryer. Also this helps the hair come out straighter and less curly since the hair is not being spun around the roller as many times. Using large rollers helps people with short hair because it comes out straighter and it suffers less heat damage.
Dominican hairstylists use a blowdryer most of the time to straighten the customers hair instead of a flat iron or other straightening tool. This can take anywhere from 30mins.to 1 hr. depending on your hair length and texture. Meaning that the hair may suffer from heat damage.
When I used to get my hair done at the Dominican hairsalons it would always have many split ends from brushing it so much while styling. When I stopped going to the salon my hair I did not have not one split end. Also it would get dry from exposing it so much to the heat from the blower and hair dryer for such long periods of time. I recommend leaving some special leave in conditioner or other moisturizing hair product in. Moreover the constant pulling from the round comb would break my hair. Dominican hair salon stylists are known for pulling hair. This caused me to have broken hairs along my hairline that naturally would not occur.
If you like to let your hair naturally curly constantly getting it straightened whether with a perm of simply with a blow dryer WILL damage your natural curl pattern. Something to think about. Dominicans are good at getting hair pin straight but NOT managing curly hair. That is not what Dominican hairstylists are experts at.
For many years I never understood why my hair didn't curl as much as other Spanish girls when it was wet. I had never gotten a perm, my mother never allowed me to. Something I realized when I stopped going to Dominicans hairstylists is that for the first time I had to learn how to manage my natural hair. It was a bit tricky at first but over the years I have found the best way to treat my hair. My hair became curly as opposed to wavy as a result of this, because it grew into its natural hair pattern. Also I learned how to best define my natural hair pattern using Dominican hair products that are made from natural fruits and scents such as coconut, avocado, rosemary, cinammon...etc. Also I quickly learned that Garnier Fructisse is my best friend. Nothing helps detangle my hair faster than Garnier.
Many Dominican hairstylists from my experience frown at natural curly wet hairstyles saying it will damage the hair but I would rather leave some quality leave in conditioner or moisturizer in my hair and let it dry naturally than go to the salon.
So are Dominican blowouts healthy? It depends, if you go too often it can cause heat damage from extended exposure to high temperature.There are issues such as breakage, damage to natural hair pattern, dryness, split ends, and many more.
I almost forgot to mention this, for the women with very coarse hair going to a Dominican hair stylist would be better for you than using a hot comb, and a perm. It is more healthy to let your hair dry with rollers under a dryer and no perm. I would definitely recommend a Dominican hair stylist if straight hair is what you are going for. Lastly, to have straight hair you don't need a perm. Many women with coarser hair realize this after going to a Dominican hairstylist for the first time and seeing there hair become manageable, tidy, and behaving without the use of a hot comb, or perm.
The Dominican blowout is a fairly new thing which started when blowdryers came out. Before then Dominican women would wrap their hair in rollers, keep them in until they would dry naturally. Their hair still managed to have bounce, body, and be healthy.
College Money Making Business Ideas
OK so I have been thinking and researching many different sites for good ideas that would be profitable for the average college student. I didn't find any I liked so I came up with a few of my own. These are quick and simple ways to make money.
Photography- If you have some really good photography skills, and have an excellent knowledge of how to use photo editing software. You can do photo shoots for students and events that occur around campus. This serves great to make money and you can put this on your resume as a freelancer!
Cooking- if you are really good at cooking whether its cookies, baking, roasting, etc. You can cook up a whole batch of whatever you desire and sell it to your peers.
Cleaning- If you like to clean buy some hefty cleaning products and launch a cleaning business. You can charge anywhere from 25 -75 dollars for cleaning students houses or dorms. Many students don't have time to clean or are too lazy to do it. I'm pretty sure many wouldn't mind dividing the cost among their roomates and have you clean their house. A good starting point would be at $50 to $75 per house. You can raise the price if there are alot of people living there.
Dancing/ Musician- If you are a dancer or musician or are part of a dance team you can definitely charge student organizations and local community venues to do shows at their events.
Tutoring: If you have a vast knowledge with subjects such as Chemistry, Physics, Biology, Political Science, Biotechnology, Math, Calculus, Cell Physiology, etc. this is the perfect option for you. You can even charge to do group tutoring sessions and track your tutees success rates by keeping track of their progress.
DJ'ing: Many people would be excited to have a good DJ with a great knowledge of the hottest tracks out and how to mix them with other music styles to create an awesome music mix to last the night!! This would be a great gig for student hosted parties, school hosted parties, and large school events. You can make alot of money with this if you go to a party school!
Rent your living room: If you have a big house or big living room. Rent your space over the weekend to someone or a big group of people who want to throw a massive party. Also visitors who are not part of the guest list have to pay anywhere from 5 to 10 bucks to get in. You must set the guidelines down. What you will and will not accept. Also they have to sign whatever contract you guys come up with. They should clean up the space after they are done. If its part of your set deal.
These are the ideas I have for now. I know all of these would work perfectly. I know many people who have employed these tactics and made a good amount of money!!
Photography- If you have some really good photography skills, and have an excellent knowledge of how to use photo editing software. You can do photo shoots for students and events that occur around campus. This serves great to make money and you can put this on your resume as a freelancer!
Cooking- if you are really good at cooking whether its cookies, baking, roasting, etc. You can cook up a whole batch of whatever you desire and sell it to your peers.
Cleaning- If you like to clean buy some hefty cleaning products and launch a cleaning business. You can charge anywhere from 25 -75 dollars for cleaning students houses or dorms. Many students don't have time to clean or are too lazy to do it. I'm pretty sure many wouldn't mind dividing the cost among their roomates and have you clean their house. A good starting point would be at $50 to $75 per house. You can raise the price if there are alot of people living there.
Dancing/ Musician- If you are a dancer or musician or are part of a dance team you can definitely charge student organizations and local community venues to do shows at their events.
Tutoring: If you have a vast knowledge with subjects such as Chemistry, Physics, Biology, Political Science, Biotechnology, Math, Calculus, Cell Physiology, etc. this is the perfect option for you. You can even charge to do group tutoring sessions and track your tutees success rates by keeping track of their progress.
DJ'ing: Many people would be excited to have a good DJ with a great knowledge of the hottest tracks out and how to mix them with other music styles to create an awesome music mix to last the night!! This would be a great gig for student hosted parties, school hosted parties, and large school events. You can make alot of money with this if you go to a party school!
Rent your living room: If you have a big house or big living room. Rent your space over the weekend to someone or a big group of people who want to throw a massive party. Also visitors who are not part of the guest list have to pay anywhere from 5 to 10 bucks to get in. You must set the guidelines down. What you will and will not accept. Also they have to sign whatever contract you guys come up with. They should clean up the space after they are done. If its part of your set deal.
These are the ideas I have for now. I know all of these would work perfectly. I know many people who have employed these tactics and made a good amount of money!!
Sunday, December 26, 2010
Young Entrepreneurs Create their own JOBS
I read this article posted by the NYTimes recently and it was very inspirational. It has led me to seriously
consider my own business slowly overtime of course. I have decided to look into advertising and learning the ropes.
There are some tips I think people should follow when starting a business or monetizing a website or blog:
consider my own business slowly overtime of course. I have decided to look into advertising and learning the ropes.
There are some tips I think people should follow when starting a business or monetizing a website or blog:
- Make sure you have a nice little bundle of money to start out with. Taking out loans can make things troublesome but don't let it stop you if that is the road you choose to take.
- Choose something you are passionate about
- Make sure to know your target audience
- Focus on something you have expertise on
- Create a business plan you can actually follow through on
- Advertise. get the word out to your friends and local community!!
- Decide how you will advertise: social media, phone, ads, email, internet etc.
Apple Ipod Touch
8GB $229
32GB $299
64GB $399
Video calling is in full effect on iPod touch. Now your friends can see what you’re up to, when you’re up to it. With the tap of a button, you can wave "hi" while standing in a foreign country, get a second opinion on a pair of boots, or have your friends bear witness to the everyday pranks, bets, and dares they otherwise might have missed — new iPod touch to new iPod touch or iPhone 4 over Wi-Fi. And come face to face with even more fun.I checked the listings on amazon
It is much cheaper to buy an 8gb on the apple website which is only 229. You won't find it at that price on amazon. It is more costly.
Dominican Hair products
They say with good reason that Dominican hair-care products are the best in the world, especially for women with textured hair. Shampoos, rinses, conditioners, deep treatments, relaxers... Most of them made with the natural tropical ingredients of the Carribean, to promote healthy, luxurious, lustrous hair... Try them and see for yourself! Use this page to find them, read more about them, and order them conveniently and securely from Amazon.com.
DOMINICAN WOMEN ARE IN LOVE WITH THEIR HAIR! Dominican, Italian, Spanish, Brazilian, and other hair products that are popular among Dominicanas and now also with African-American women and all women of color because, like us, their hair demands the very best of treatment! Shampoos, rinses, conditioners, creams, moisturizers, leave-ins, deep treatments, fragrant tonics and oils, relaxers, revitalizers, hair growth treatments, detanglers, emergency treatments for damaged or over-processed hair, gray-hair covering, and all our hair needs, most of them made from healthy fragrant natural ingredients like coconut, cinnamon, avocado, olive, and rosemary!
This is a good place to check out these products: http://www.aleida.net/hair-en.html. These are some of the products that I have tried and were pretty good on my hair.
Alter ego - IMPAC EGO Treatment with Garlic 500ml
Original… and still the best. This special cream, rich in peptydes, vitamins, and mineral salts derived from wheat and garlic, represents an excellent alternative to hair treatment with animal-based extracts. It is ideal for treated hair such as bleached, dyed, permed, or relaxed. It leaves the hair soft and strong.
Star Lacio Lacio high shine leave in conditioner
BOE Crece Pelo Natural Phitoterapeutic Combo Set for Capillar Growth- helps induce hair growth
Silicon MIX Intensive Hair Deep Treatment 16oz By Avanti[health and Beauty]-
Apretadora Hair Fortifying Treatment is made with Apretol-15, Cinnamon, and Rosemary, which penetrates your hair like no other, providing shine and volume. Especially formulated for damaged hair and split end
Dominican Hair Product Sabila (Aloe) Creme Conditoner 8oz by Alfil.. Any of the Alfil products are very good
Boé Crece Pelo Natural Phytotherapeutic Treatment for Capilar Growth is made from natural plants to promote hair growth. Its innovative formula adds nutrients for health, beauty, vitality, softness and flexibility to the hair, helping the hair to grow. It may be used with all types of hair: Dominican, African-American, Asian, European; natural, straightened, bleached, or dyed.
Lafier Amazonia Maracuya and Vitamins C, E, & B Complex Moisturizing Treatment A deep treatment made with maracuya (ripe yellow passion fruit) and vitamins C, E, and B complex which regulates the sebaceous glands and gives your hair volume, softness, and shine.
Miss Key 10 in 1 Super Conditioner contains a mix of the 10 most important products for hair damaged by dyes and the sun's harmful effects. It is tropicalized for all hair types. That is why it is considered as a super conditioner.
THESE ARE SOME OF THE PRODUCTS THAT I USE WITH MOST FREQUENCY BUT YOU CAN FIND A WIDE ASSORTMENT OF HAIR SHAMPOOS, CONDITIONERS, DEEP TREATMENTS, DETANGLERS, STRAIGHTENERS..SO ON AND SO FORTH.
See also:
Are Dominican Blowouts Healthy?
Saturday, December 25, 2010
Tokidoki LeSportSac
The combination of Tokidoki and Lesportsac creates a handbag that is not only dependable and sturdy but also very trendy and stylish. Lesportsac is a very well known handbag maker that is known for its very functional nylon bags. This company has created a very visible presence worldwide and it has partnered with some of very popular fashion icons to produce bags that are stylish and very popular amongst those who want both quality and fashion. Lesportsac handbags have the trademark sporty style that combines quality with versatility and functionality. These bags can be purchased in a number of styles from messenger bags and totes to backpacks and attaches. For those seeking trendy Lesportsac bags, the Tokidoki style combines quality with the trendsetting characters of this Japanese anime inspired line.
Tokidoki is a brand that was created by designers Simone Legno, Pooneh Mohajer and Ivan Arnold. The Tokidoki brand is comprised of Japanese characters. The characters are part of the Tokidoki world and have their own storylines and plots similar to a cartoon. This brand has become very popular since its conception in 2005, and the Tokidoki characters grace everything from apparel to handbags. The characters of the Tokidoki line are very popular and some people collect them. Although the Tokidoki line is fairly new its popularity has spawned much collaboration with other companies such as Lesportsac. The collaboration between Tokidoki and Lesportsac has produced some very stylish handbags that are highly sought after. Many of these bags are designed with very exciting unique prints that are characteristic of the Japanese urban culture.
The Tokidoki handbags produced by Lesportsac have certain characteristics that make them very unique. One major feature of these bags is the designs. Nearly all of these bags are made with some type of print on them. Even the simple black bags have a logo or an embedded print that is characteristic of the Tokidoki brand. Likewise, the bags usually come with a toy or a Qee. A Qee is a small Tokidoki figurine that is attached to the handbag. For people who are interested in collecting these bags sometimes people spend thousands of dollars just to own bags with different Qees. The Qees are characters that are well known Tokidoki characters. In some cases Lesportsac and Tokidoki will create very rare print bags. These are the special edition bags that are sometimes sold for five times their original value.
The Tokidoki handbags produced by Lesportsac have certain characteristics that make them very unique. One major feature of these bags is the designs. Nearly all of these bags are made with some type of print on them. Even the simple black bags have a logo or an embedded print that is characteristic of the Tokidoki brand. Likewise, the bags usually come with a toy or a Qee. A Qee is a small Tokidoki figurine that is attached to the handbag. For people who are interested in collecting these bags sometimes people spend thousands of dollars just to own bags with different Qees. The Qees are characters that are well known Tokidoki characters. In some cases Lesportsac and Tokidoki will create very rare print bags. These are the special edition bags that are sometimes sold for five times their original value.
Tokidoki handbags can be purchased via many different outlets. To ensure that you receive a quality, authentic handbag it is suggested that you purchase Tokidoki handbags from an authorized retailer. Lesportsac is the official maker of many of the Tokidoki handbags so you should consider purchasing these bags directly from the Lesportsac website. Likewise, many high end retailers carry the Tokidoki handbags. If you are interested in purchasing the Tokidoki handbags then you should definitely do your research before purchasing them from an independent retailer. Tokidoki handbags are a hot commodity, particularly the rare prints.
Please visit tokidoki handbags and tokidoki bags for more information.
Please visit tokidoki handbags and tokidoki bags for more information.
Toki Doki limited edition sephora tote
I LOVE TOKI DOKI. I got a free tokidoki tote from Sephora coming in the mail soon. Although the sad thing is how mainstream they have become. When I used to walk around school with my toki doki bag people thought it was weird lol.
Toki Doki robbery
simone legno
Toki Doki robbery
simone legno
Junko Mizuno
This manga artist does some cool figures inspired by fairty tales and other fantastical/ imaginary art. Its pretty cool. She makes creepy ones called hell babies. She's inspired by childhood cute toys such as my little pony and others. Must see. By the way she is Japanese. Japanese are amazingly creative. But then again that is my bias.
Miss Van
I love Miss Van's graffitiart. Unlike fafinettes which are cute, original, and urban, Miss Vans cartoons have a lot of depth which explores sexuality, animalism, friendship, love, and many other topics. I love how her art is very layered in its meaning. This is pretty hot!
Miss Van website..check out her cool works
MISS VAN EXHIBITION
Miss Van website..check out her cool works
Monday, December 6, 2010
Cheating
I know so many people who cheat. Have cheated. and felt good about it. I could never do it. I dont value that. Its not one of my values. I would hate if someone did that to me so I could never see myself doing it to anybody. But I know so many people who hit it and quit it. But I don't think I have the heart to do something like that. I mean if its not working out its easy for me to detach and break up with someone. But not cheat. I don't see how it would benefit me. I would gain nothing from it. And it would just be a part of myself that is being faked. Because deep down inside I know that that isn't me. I would feel fake. Even if everyone believed it I know it would be fake emotions. Anyways I could never cheat on someone. THE END.
superficial is subjective
I don't think its superficial to take care of yourself and buy yourself nice things. I know people who have commented that I am superficial because I like to buy clothing, sneakers, bags etc occasionally that I consider to be cute. I don't believe that is superficial. Now if I allow those material things to define me then yes it would be. I like to wear makeup, paint my nails and other girly shit because I genuinely think its fun. Yes I do believe in natural beauty but certain things are not naturally beautiful such as dark circles under your eyes, women with uni-brows or mustaches, obesity, love handles, Humongous moles, and long nose hair to name a few. But these are all in my opinion, I'm pretty sure there are people out there who become heavily attracted to a female or males based on these qualities. Sometimes a little make-up in the correct spots does go a long way. I mean just look at Oprah for example. (I didn't mean that as an offense.)
Sometimes I buy nice things as a reward for myself because I reached a goal I thought was really difficult to reach or never thought I would reach. In that case I don't mind buying something expensive for myself that I would regularly not get. I do celebrate myself, and encourage myself because frankly I know most people do not have my happiness, emotional and mental health as their number one priorities in life.Taking this into account I'm not going to stop being taking care of myself because what is superficial to one is normal to another.
I remember my grandma would buy herself a nice gift for her birthday or every so often and I didn't understand why she was buying herself gifts but it makes perfect sense now. And no it's not superficial. It's just another way of loving oneself. Some people think being on the extreme end of the natural spectrum is the way to go. I met people like this in college. Their hair was always nasty and greasy from not washing it, they had disgusting acne, ugly nails, ripped up clothing, smelled like ass-crack, never showered or wore deodorant. If that makes you happy, and this is how you demonstrate love for yourself GO FOR IT. But please refrain from talking shit about me because I do not engage in those decadent activities. I graduated in May and have been meaning to do something nice for myself. I' m still weighing my options. But you see, I don't feel that whichever option I choose makes me superficial.
Also I am not going to change any of those things about myself to make someone else feel comfortable. Mostly because the people who talk criticize and hate the hardest are the ones who eventually come to my side. I mean I'm not a label whore I'm a bargain girl. If I can find something I have wanted for a long time at a good bargain I am going to buy it. Many other people share this mentality. I don't believe this makes me materialistic unless I was frequently spending money buying new garments. Frankly, I just think some people are so insecure they don't know what else to do with themselves except to talk shit. To a large extent I do believe that people who hate do so because on a deeper level they have low self esteem and are jealous. And my experiences confirm this. If being superficial means trying to look my best, feel confident, in control of myself, liberated, and content with my life............then I am the most superficial bitch you will ever meet!!
Sometimes I buy nice things as a reward for myself because I reached a goal I thought was really difficult to reach or never thought I would reach. In that case I don't mind buying something expensive for myself that I would regularly not get. I do celebrate myself, and encourage myself because frankly I know most people do not have my happiness, emotional and mental health as their number one priorities in life.Taking this into account I'm not going to stop being taking care of myself because what is superficial to one is normal to another.
I remember my grandma would buy herself a nice gift for her birthday or every so often and I didn't understand why she was buying herself gifts but it makes perfect sense now. And no it's not superficial. It's just another way of loving oneself. Some people think being on the extreme end of the natural spectrum is the way to go. I met people like this in college. Their hair was always nasty and greasy from not washing it, they had disgusting acne, ugly nails, ripped up clothing, smelled like ass-crack, never showered or wore deodorant. If that makes you happy, and this is how you demonstrate love for yourself GO FOR IT. But please refrain from talking shit about me because I do not engage in those decadent activities. I graduated in May and have been meaning to do something nice for myself. I' m still weighing my options. But you see, I don't feel that whichever option I choose makes me superficial.
Also I am not going to change any of those things about myself to make someone else feel comfortable. Mostly because the people who talk criticize and hate the hardest are the ones who eventually come to my side. I mean I'm not a label whore I'm a bargain girl. If I can find something I have wanted for a long time at a good bargain I am going to buy it. Many other people share this mentality. I don't believe this makes me materialistic unless I was frequently spending money buying new garments. Frankly, I just think some people are so insecure they don't know what else to do with themselves except to talk shit. To a large extent I do believe that people who hate do so because on a deeper level they have low self esteem and are jealous. And my experiences confirm this. If being superficial means trying to look my best, feel confident, in control of myself, liberated, and content with my life............then I am the most superficial bitch you will ever meet!!
Saturday, December 4, 2010
Highly logical females still have feelings
I found this article somewhere and I can totally relate to everything written here.
Hear me out, here. I'm saying girls have the capacity to be INTENSELY logical -- my ex was more logical than any GIRL I'd ever met. And for a long time afterward, I actually believed she was strictly logical, but that was a mistake.
It's my belief that ALL PEOPLE make decisions based on emotion. Some more than others, sure. And ESPECIALLY when it comes to making decisions about possible mates. People tend to go with their gut instincts. They also feel emotions for people and then backwards rationalize "why" they feel those emotions.
For example, I'm telling you that the ex was attractive because she challenged me and she expanded my perspectives, etc, but honestly, when I was with her for the first few months, I wasn't thinking about that stuff. I wasn't listing out bullet-points like a computer in a strictly detached way in order to determine whether or not I should stay with her. I felt an emotional pull to stay with her. SURE, afterward, you can list out all those traits in a logical manner, but IN THE MOMENT often we go by emotion. And we often use logic to backwards justify whatever we are feeling. So if I feel a negative emotion toward you for whatever reason, I can easily start pulling logical reasons from my mind to support that. But when it comes down to it, especially in interpersonal relationships, people are led by what they feel, and this applies to the most intensely logical people, men and women alike.
There are degrees of course. An ESFP is more likely to make IMPULSIVE decisions based on emotion than an INTJ for instance. And perhaps that's where our lapse in communication is stemming. A person can still make decisions based on a groundwork foundation of emotions without IMPULSIVELY doing so. An NT may more carefully consider the facts and the consequences of what they are about to do, but its hard to make the case that emotions can be completely shoved aside and play no role whatsoever. The person's emotions are very likely a reason he or she would take the time out to logically weigh the pros and cons of a situation. "Why do I feel like this? What would happen if I did this?"
Again, let me stress. Some people are more emotional than others. But to say that emotions are a complete non-factor in how people decide to proceed in interpersonal relationships is just not accurate to the reality of the situation. No matter HOW intensely logical the person can be! A capacity to be intensely logical and rational does NOT mean that a person lacks emotions or that the person's emotions have NO effect on their decision-making process.
Even I can admit to my emotions influencing my decision-making. That's only human. When it comes to the ways people usually try to exploit this, yes I see myself as more immune than most. And I'm not saying that for many women logic plays NO role in decisions regarding interpersonal relationships. I know for sure that for many women it plays a role, but most often that role is to clarify the emotions in question. In other words, the emotions are the "first cause," if you will. No emotions, no need to logically break things down.
Consider this. A woman might say, "I like this guy because he is funny. I like this guy because he is assertive. I like this guy for X." At first glance, that looks like a totally detached, logical way putting things into perspective. But wait a sec, would you still like this guy if he had no influence on your emotions? A person who is funny makes us laugh and feel good emotions. A person who is assertive enables us to feel more safe around them. See what I'm saying here? What if a guy has the unnerving trait of making you feel uncomfortable in his presence? You can't logic your way out of that one. If the guy's presence makes you feel awkward and uncomfortable, then he can't LOGICALLY convince you to be attracted to him. Nor can you logically decide to make that feeling of discomfort go away. It's just there. He's causing it. And it's heavily influencing whether or not you want to hang around that guy.
And yes, logic can also intervene when extenuating circumstances crop up. For example, "He has kids and wants marriage. I enjoy being single. He's not right for me, so I better break it off." But then again, these circumstances are significant enough that they warrant an emotional disconnect. Some women can do this, some women can't. Some women keep going back to their wife-beating husbands over and over because of the emotions they get from him. For some women, this warrants an emotional disconnect wherein they must consider their own personal safety and future. And that kind of thing does happen. But barring such extenuating circumstances, most people can and do make decisions HEAVILY influenced by emotion. Not just women, everyone.
So my grand point here is that it is a MISTAKE for guys to go around assuming that they can completely ignore a girl's emotions JUST because she seems logical to him. I did that toward the end of my relationship with the ENTP, and it was a huge blunder. I was living under the delusion that some people are like computers, and that that you can reason with them logically and that their emotions are a total non-factor, but that is not the case AT ALL, and guys who live under this delusion are in for a rude awakening. So if you want to believe that certain girls are the logical equivalent of "Data" from Star Trek, go ahead, but you are ignoring and denying their basic and fundamental humanity.
Hear me out, here. I'm saying girls have the capacity to be INTENSELY logical -- my ex was more logical than any GIRL I'd ever met. And for a long time afterward, I actually believed she was strictly logical, but that was a mistake.
It's my belief that ALL PEOPLE make decisions based on emotion. Some more than others, sure. And ESPECIALLY when it comes to making decisions about possible mates. People tend to go with their gut instincts. They also feel emotions for people and then backwards rationalize "why" they feel those emotions.
For example, I'm telling you that the ex was attractive because she challenged me and she expanded my perspectives, etc, but honestly, when I was with her for the first few months, I wasn't thinking about that stuff. I wasn't listing out bullet-points like a computer in a strictly detached way in order to determine whether or not I should stay with her. I felt an emotional pull to stay with her. SURE, afterward, you can list out all those traits in a logical manner, but IN THE MOMENT often we go by emotion. And we often use logic to backwards justify whatever we are feeling. So if I feel a negative emotion toward you for whatever reason, I can easily start pulling logical reasons from my mind to support that. But when it comes down to it, especially in interpersonal relationships, people are led by what they feel, and this applies to the most intensely logical people, men and women alike.
There are degrees of course. An ESFP is more likely to make IMPULSIVE decisions based on emotion than an INTJ for instance. And perhaps that's where our lapse in communication is stemming. A person can still make decisions based on a groundwork foundation of emotions without IMPULSIVELY doing so. An NT may more carefully consider the facts and the consequences of what they are about to do, but its hard to make the case that emotions can be completely shoved aside and play no role whatsoever. The person's emotions are very likely a reason he or she would take the time out to logically weigh the pros and cons of a situation. "Why do I feel like this? What would happen if I did this?"
Again, let me stress. Some people are more emotional than others. But to say that emotions are a complete non-factor in how people decide to proceed in interpersonal relationships is just not accurate to the reality of the situation. No matter HOW intensely logical the person can be! A capacity to be intensely logical and rational does NOT mean that a person lacks emotions or that the person's emotions have NO effect on their decision-making process.
Even I can admit to my emotions influencing my decision-making. That's only human. When it comes to the ways people usually try to exploit this, yes I see myself as more immune than most. And I'm not saying that for many women logic plays NO role in decisions regarding interpersonal relationships. I know for sure that for many women it plays a role, but most often that role is to clarify the emotions in question. In other words, the emotions are the "first cause," if you will. No emotions, no need to logically break things down.
Consider this. A woman might say, "I like this guy because he is funny. I like this guy because he is assertive. I like this guy for X." At first glance, that looks like a totally detached, logical way putting things into perspective. But wait a sec, would you still like this guy if he had no influence on your emotions? A person who is funny makes us laugh and feel good emotions. A person who is assertive enables us to feel more safe around them. See what I'm saying here? What if a guy has the unnerving trait of making you feel uncomfortable in his presence? You can't logic your way out of that one. If the guy's presence makes you feel awkward and uncomfortable, then he can't LOGICALLY convince you to be attracted to him. Nor can you logically decide to make that feeling of discomfort go away. It's just there. He's causing it. And it's heavily influencing whether or not you want to hang around that guy.
And yes, logic can also intervene when extenuating circumstances crop up. For example, "He has kids and wants marriage. I enjoy being single. He's not right for me, so I better break it off." But then again, these circumstances are significant enough that they warrant an emotional disconnect. Some women can do this, some women can't. Some women keep going back to their wife-beating husbands over and over because of the emotions they get from him. For some women, this warrants an emotional disconnect wherein they must consider their own personal safety and future. And that kind of thing does happen. But barring such extenuating circumstances, most people can and do make decisions HEAVILY influenced by emotion. Not just women, everyone.
So my grand point here is that it is a MISTAKE for guys to go around assuming that they can completely ignore a girl's emotions JUST because she seems logical to him. I did that toward the end of my relationship with the ENTP, and it was a huge blunder. I was living under the delusion that some people are like computers, and that that you can reason with them logically and that their emotions are a total non-factor, but that is not the case AT ALL, and guys who live under this delusion are in for a rude awakening. So if you want to believe that certain girls are the logical equivalent of "Data" from Star Trek, go ahead, but you are ignoring and denying their basic and fundamental humanity.
Thursday, December 2, 2010
rational women dilemma
I am writing this particular post to explain how Rational women are usually misunderstood in terms of emotion. I express pretty deep emotional truths in my writings. Often folks will approach me after one such emotionally tinged post and are surprised to see me looking pretty much the way I normally look. I sometimes wonder if they are expecting to see me sobbing openly and wandering around with only one shoe -- not that there is anything wrong with that image. On the surface, nothing appears to have changed about my demeanor. The difference is that if you really look in to my eyes, you will see my pain, suffering and deep emotion. It is not stoicism, or some self-delusion about carrying on in spite of it all. I truly believe stating that I am in pain is sufficient and I find it insulting to have to put on an act to “prove it” to anyone. Many introverted Rationals express their emotions quietly, self-contained and with restraint … until it needs to be shouted to be heard.
And that is when the “Urban & Warrior” parts kick in for me. If I have to shout about my pain in order to be heard, you will hear it in my native tongue.
So let’s summarize, shall we … I express myself deeply when I write. The emotions are real and deeply felt. I will not always explicitly exhibit the extent of my emotional state, but it is there to see if you look into my eyes. If I ever have to prove it to you … back up a bit for your own safety.
And that is when the “Urban & Warrior” parts kick in for me. If I have to shout about my pain in order to be heard, you will hear it in my native tongue.
So let’s summarize, shall we … I express myself deeply when I write. The emotions are real and deeply felt. I will not always explicitly exhibit the extent of my emotional state, but it is there to see if you look into my eyes. If I ever have to prove it to you … back up a bit for your own safety.
entp- intro-extrovert
In terms of reasoning? Yes, highly extroverted; I can't even finish a thought without having to whisper it or say it out loud, or it just doesn't feel complete. When I think through things, I do it through an external process; I think far more clearly when describing something TO someone else, than I do just sitting there thinking about it on my own. This is essentially how extroverts work in mbti.
However, the typical "introvert/extrovert" yeu hear about normally isn't the MBTI definition at all. It's more whether yeu like to deal with people and such. Yes, I can put on a good face and stand out great in a crowd... I can tell stories or be ridiculously charismatic when I so choose to be, it comes very naturally. So, too, however... comes a dislike of people. I'm scared of crowds; it's not quite intense enough to be a true debilitating phobia, but I seriously don't like them. I don't like groups of people, and honestly, I don't like dealing with people in general on more than a 1 on 1 basis. I want to talk to yeu directly. Chat programs I *LOVE* to death, I can have 5 conversations going at once with different people, and each one is private and focused on that one person... I can be happy and silly with one person, while still being sympathetic towards another who's having a bad day, but they need not know I'm feeling both things at once and won't get depressed or frustrated over such. If we were in person, everyone would have to be on the same page. I'm far happier being able to tailor fit myself to each individual's mood and personality. I can make inappropriate jokes with people I know will appreciate such, and can be more reserved with someone else who I wouldn't want to even know I think like that XD
But yeah, generally I am not sociable.
Actually... one friend of mine put it to me that they believed I thought of people this way: To me, people are tools to be used. They provide humour, or interesting discussion, fun, love, or whotever, but as soon as they've lost their use, they are of no more value to me anymore. So long as they maintain a use, they are kept around, but if a tool breaks down, just get another one.
And sadly enough... it's kinda true. It kinda hurt to hear it said that way, but after thinking it through... he was right. That is how I think about people. When yeu stop being relevant to me directly, and no longer provide direct benefit, I no longer have any interest in yeu.
I don't care about the world. I don't care about the starving third world children. Guess whot? They were starving yesterday too. I didn't even know they existed. I had no reason to feel bad. Today I now see a picture of some starving kid I didn't even know existed before. Oddly enough... this doesn't bother me. It's no different than it was yesterday. The starving kid doesn't know I saw their picture. They won't know if I never do anything to raise a finger. They don't know me. I don't know them. There are 6.5 BILLION people on this planet. I can't be emotionally invested in every single one of them; it's not possible. 40,000 die every single day. Do I care that someone died in a car accident in the newspaper? No. Do I care that they were stoned to death? Not really. I might be irritated that someone would DO that, but I have absolutely zero connection with the individual who died. If I directly KNOW them and am attached to them, then YES I will be concerned... but the fact that people panicked about the WTC thing is just... so foreign to me.
When it happened, they showed pictures from a third world nation with people CHEERING... I laughed and promptly got yelled at for doing so. But I laughed because those third world people had NO clue whot they were cheering about. The absurdity of it amused me, that they would be happy that people they didn't even know existed the day before died. Why? They didn't KNOW them. They got no benefit from such. They gained nothing. Well some of them may've now but I don't think that was afghanistan or iraq that was being interviewed.
In any case, the point is that I'm very detached from humanity as a whole. I don't really like being human. It's kind of something I feel ashamed of most of the time. I don't want to be connected to yeu people, and I don't want to have anything to do with yeu if yeu aren't directly related to something that interests me.
The people on this board? Yeu amuse me, yeu entertain me, yeu provoke thoughts and discussions, though admittedly I have been far too distracted to really put true thought into stuff lately and my arguments and posts have been rather lackluster due to such, but hei, it happens.
Regardless, I would notice and grieve if someone here I was aware of died. Eck, peguy, jennifer, sky is blue, even lark or victor. Well maybe not victor, but I'd at least be kinda bleh he was dead, I'm not sure if grieve would be quite the right term for it but whotever.
Point is I am connected to those who stand out to me (I didn't want to list everyone, the list's too long, if yeu're not on the short list don't worry, victor is so it's not based on quality ^.~ ), and those I interact with regularly.
Here's a way to describe it...
If yeu have a favorite tool, a hammer or something sentimental given to yeu by a parent for yeur birthday before they died or something, sure yeu may have no use for a hammer most of the time, but it'd hold sentimental value and yeu would cherish it.
Now yeu come across an old beaten up damaged hammer on the highway when driving along it that's rotting on the side of the road.
Do yeu feel bad that the hammer is broken on the side of the road? No. Yeu probably don't even look at it twice, or might wonder how it got there, but frankly wouldn't care. If the cherished last gift from someone yeu cared about was lost or damaged, it would hurt, despite that it's "just a hammer". It has value, it has meaning, it has a direct emotional connection to yeu as something important.
This is how I view people. I know it may sound cold and heartless, but it's really not. I truly care about people who I know well and value, I just don't see any reason to waste my heart on the endless sea of nameless faces out there.
"Live for yourself, there's noone else more worth living for. Begging hands and bleeding hearts will only cry out for more." ~ Anthem - RUSH
In any case, I'm not social. Yet am highly social. I love to interact with people on a one on one basis... but I can just as easily do without people. As... long as I know they're not worried about me. When I was stuck in the hospital, and at home over christmas, I was PANICKING badly, because people didn't know where I was. The idea that I would leave people I care about not knowing where I was, if I was hurt, injured, sick, or dead, is something that bothers me to the deepest roots.
But yeah... if yeu're not on the list of people I know, I don't have any interest in yeu. Yeu're an extra on a movie screen about to get stomped on by godzilla. Yeu exist to fill space and make the streets not empty, yeu have no further purpose to me, I provide yeu no further courtesy.
I'm very introverted in terms of how I deal with people, but extroverted in terms of how I deal with thinking; my thoughts are externalized... I am by MBTI's definition, highly extroverted. In terms of the "do yeu like people?" definition, I'm highly introverted.
So there yeu go.
ENTP = introverted extrovert XD
Yes. I probably would be more social if I hadn't gotten used to the fact that most people don't want to socialize the same way that I do. And they are not interested in the same types of things. People invite me out because I am fun, a comic relief, and know a little bit about a lot of things - but on a one-on-one level, I pretty much bore people to tears. So I give the people what they want, and I get into it. I get hyper and excited and whatever. But when I come home, I am back to my normal nerdy shut-in self.
However, the typical "introvert/extrovert" yeu hear about normally isn't the MBTI definition at all. It's more whether yeu like to deal with people and such. Yes, I can put on a good face and stand out great in a crowd... I can tell stories or be ridiculously charismatic when I so choose to be, it comes very naturally. So, too, however... comes a dislike of people. I'm scared of crowds; it's not quite intense enough to be a true debilitating phobia, but I seriously don't like them. I don't like groups of people, and honestly, I don't like dealing with people in general on more than a 1 on 1 basis. I want to talk to yeu directly. Chat programs I *LOVE* to death, I can have 5 conversations going at once with different people, and each one is private and focused on that one person... I can be happy and silly with one person, while still being sympathetic towards another who's having a bad day, but they need not know I'm feeling both things at once and won't get depressed or frustrated over such. If we were in person, everyone would have to be on the same page. I'm far happier being able to tailor fit myself to each individual's mood and personality. I can make inappropriate jokes with people I know will appreciate such, and can be more reserved with someone else who I wouldn't want to even know I think like that XD
But yeah, generally I am not sociable.
Actually... one friend of mine put it to me that they believed I thought of people this way: To me, people are tools to be used. They provide humour, or interesting discussion, fun, love, or whotever, but as soon as they've lost their use, they are of no more value to me anymore. So long as they maintain a use, they are kept around, but if a tool breaks down, just get another one.
And sadly enough... it's kinda true. It kinda hurt to hear it said that way, but after thinking it through... he was right. That is how I think about people. When yeu stop being relevant to me directly, and no longer provide direct benefit, I no longer have any interest in yeu.
I don't care about the world. I don't care about the starving third world children. Guess whot? They were starving yesterday too. I didn't even know they existed. I had no reason to feel bad. Today I now see a picture of some starving kid I didn't even know existed before. Oddly enough... this doesn't bother me. It's no different than it was yesterday. The starving kid doesn't know I saw their picture. They won't know if I never do anything to raise a finger. They don't know me. I don't know them. There are 6.5 BILLION people on this planet. I can't be emotionally invested in every single one of them; it's not possible. 40,000 die every single day. Do I care that someone died in a car accident in the newspaper? No. Do I care that they were stoned to death? Not really. I might be irritated that someone would DO that, but I have absolutely zero connection with the individual who died. If I directly KNOW them and am attached to them, then YES I will be concerned... but the fact that people panicked about the WTC thing is just... so foreign to me.
When it happened, they showed pictures from a third world nation with people CHEERING... I laughed and promptly got yelled at for doing so. But I laughed because those third world people had NO clue whot they were cheering about. The absurdity of it amused me, that they would be happy that people they didn't even know existed the day before died. Why? They didn't KNOW them. They got no benefit from such. They gained nothing. Well some of them may've now but I don't think that was afghanistan or iraq that was being interviewed.
In any case, the point is that I'm very detached from humanity as a whole. I don't really like being human. It's kind of something I feel ashamed of most of the time. I don't want to be connected to yeu people, and I don't want to have anything to do with yeu if yeu aren't directly related to something that interests me.
The people on this board? Yeu amuse me, yeu entertain me, yeu provoke thoughts and discussions, though admittedly I have been far too distracted to really put true thought into stuff lately and my arguments and posts have been rather lackluster due to such, but hei, it happens.
Regardless, I would notice and grieve if someone here I was aware of died. Eck, peguy, jennifer, sky is blue, even lark or victor. Well maybe not victor, but I'd at least be kinda bleh he was dead, I'm not sure if grieve would be quite the right term for it but whotever.
Point is I am connected to those who stand out to me (I didn't want to list everyone, the list's too long, if yeu're not on the short list don't worry, victor is so it's not based on quality ^.~ ), and those I interact with regularly.
Here's a way to describe it...
If yeu have a favorite tool, a hammer or something sentimental given to yeu by a parent for yeur birthday before they died or something, sure yeu may have no use for a hammer most of the time, but it'd hold sentimental value and yeu would cherish it.
Now yeu come across an old beaten up damaged hammer on the highway when driving along it that's rotting on the side of the road.
Do yeu feel bad that the hammer is broken on the side of the road? No. Yeu probably don't even look at it twice, or might wonder how it got there, but frankly wouldn't care. If the cherished last gift from someone yeu cared about was lost or damaged, it would hurt, despite that it's "just a hammer". It has value, it has meaning, it has a direct emotional connection to yeu as something important.
This is how I view people. I know it may sound cold and heartless, but it's really not. I truly care about people who I know well and value, I just don't see any reason to waste my heart on the endless sea of nameless faces out there.
"Live for yourself, there's noone else more worth living for. Begging hands and bleeding hearts will only cry out for more." ~ Anthem - RUSH
In any case, I'm not social. Yet am highly social. I love to interact with people on a one on one basis... but I can just as easily do without people. As... long as I know they're not worried about me. When I was stuck in the hospital, and at home over christmas, I was PANICKING badly, because people didn't know where I was. The idea that I would leave people I care about not knowing where I was, if I was hurt, injured, sick, or dead, is something that bothers me to the deepest roots.
But yeah... if yeu're not on the list of people I know, I don't have any interest in yeu. Yeu're an extra on a movie screen about to get stomped on by godzilla. Yeu exist to fill space and make the streets not empty, yeu have no further purpose to me, I provide yeu no further courtesy.
I'm very introverted in terms of how I deal with people, but extroverted in terms of how I deal with thinking; my thoughts are externalized... I am by MBTI's definition, highly extroverted. In terms of the "do yeu like people?" definition, I'm highly introverted.
So there yeu go.
ENTP = introverted extrovert XD
Yes. I probably would be more social if I hadn't gotten used to the fact that most people don't want to socialize the same way that I do. And they are not interested in the same types of things. People invite me out because I am fun, a comic relief, and know a little bit about a lot of things - but on a one-on-one level, I pretty much bore people to tears. So I give the people what they want, and I get into it. I get hyper and excited and whatever. But when I come home, I am back to my normal nerdy shut-in self.
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Masculine females
Females w/ masculine personalities repel masculine men and attract feminine men. Although the masculine exterior exists fundamentally she's feminine and will eventually desire a masculine man to take care of her. That is a problem for the feminine guy bc he won't be able to live up to that standard.
Thursday, November 25, 2010
Ten Commandments of the Female Nerd
- Thou shall be user friendly.
- Thou shall love thineself, for thou art a rare and noble breed, and worth it.
- Thou shalt never use thine sex or thine superpowers for ill.
- Thou shalt not start drama, for it is the bane of all nerd-dom.
- Thou shall know thine shit, and not rely on thine sex appeal to keep thyself in good standing with the non-mammaried nerds.
- Thou shall have good fashion sense, if it pleaseth thee, and if not, thou shalt not care, regardless of social convention.
- Thou shalt not mother thine colleagues, for they are well able to care for themselves.
- Thou shalt not take shit.
- Thou shalt not care if a man giveth thee shit, and if a woman giveth thee shit, thou shalt not take it personally, for they know not what they do.
- Thou shall be generally awesome, and all shall love ye (and despair).
Sunday, November 21, 2010
I can wait for a Boyfriend
I have grown up in a society where having a boyfriend is an obsession. It makes a girl popular. He makes her feel wanted and loved. Many girls define themselves by their boyfriends,
and when he's gone, they lose themselves. I don't have a boyfriend, and I don't particularly want one. It may sound crazy, but I am not looking for a boyfriend.
Unlike the majority of my peers, I view the endless search for a significant other as a waste of time. Life is busy, and a boyfriend takes time and commitment: time I would rather spend with my friends, and a commitment I don't need at 23.
Sure, it might be nice to have someone to spend Saturday night with when all my friends are with their boyfriends. I have someone no other guy can even compare with, to whom I can tell all my thoughts, dreams and even insecurities.
I am not writing off boyfriends, I'm just not getting caught up in the idea of one. Someday I'm going to marry a man, so why should I waste time with guys I would not want to marry? No, I don't know who I will marry, but I know that any part I give to a guy is a small part I have taken from him. I want to give my future husband everything, so I have to be cautious what parts of my heart I share. Having a boyfriend isn't committing to marriage, but it isn't meaningless, either.
People say that with a theory like mine, I can't expect to ever find a guy, but I disagree. My theory will turn some guys away, but the guys I would actually want to date will stick around. Society tries to trick me into believing that if I don't have a boyfriend it is because no guy wants me, but society is wrong. I am not defined by the man I am dating, and I do not need a boyfriend to know who I am.
I have faith that I will find the right guy at the right time. It may take longer than I might like and more patience than I think I have, but someday my one true love will come. While I wait, I won't obsess over what I cannot change or over guys who turn away. I will focus on the here and now. My focus is on my friends, family and faith. It sounds crazy, but someday I will have a bunch of rugrats running around, and they will have an awesome father - I just know it.
Unlike the majority of my peers, I view the endless search for a significant other as a waste of time. Life is busy, and a boyfriend takes time and commitment: time I would rather spend with my friends, and a commitment I don't need at 23.
Sure, it might be nice to have someone to spend Saturday night with when all my friends are with their boyfriends. I have someone no other guy can even compare with, to whom I can tell all my thoughts, dreams and even insecurities.
I am not writing off boyfriends, I'm just not getting caught up in the idea of one. Someday I'm going to marry a man, so why should I waste time with guys I would not want to marry? No, I don't know who I will marry, but I know that any part I give to a guy is a small part I have taken from him. I want to give my future husband everything, so I have to be cautious what parts of my heart I share. Having a boyfriend isn't committing to marriage, but it isn't meaningless, either.
People say that with a theory like mine, I can't expect to ever find a guy, but I disagree. My theory will turn some guys away, but the guys I would actually want to date will stick around. Society tries to trick me into believing that if I don't have a boyfriend it is because no guy wants me, but society is wrong. I am not defined by the man I am dating, and I do not need a boyfriend to know who I am.
I have faith that I will find the right guy at the right time. It may take longer than I might like and more patience than I think I have, but someday my one true love will come. While I wait, I won't obsess over what I cannot change or over guys who turn away. I will focus on the here and now. My focus is on my friends, family and faith. It sounds crazy, but someday I will have a bunch of rugrats running around, and they will have an awesome father - I just know it.
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Asian people are cool!
Asian people are very interesting. Their culture is so different from mine but oddly similar in many ways. Their are many similarities between Asian cultural expectations when it comes to family and Hispanic families. Both are very strict and overprotective especially over the females. Females are expected to be conservative, prim and proper, dainty, and homely, and submissive in both cultures. Asian food is really good except for some flat Thai noodles I had once. I felt like vomiting because they were so slimy in my mouth. I really like how Asian people cook duck. I've had Laotian and Chinese duck and its very good. I wish I knew how to make it. (except for the greasy part). So Im not really into eating greasy food its so nasty and horrible. There's nothing worse than biting into food and having a whole tub of oil in your mouth . disgusting!
Quiet bitchy people are annoying
Have you ever met someone who came across as quiet but soon enough you started to notice they are always complaining and finding fault with everything and everyone. I cant stand quiet bitchy people. They are the worse. They are also usually insecure about something and bitch about everything to make themselves feel better. Moreover the ones I have met usually try to flaunt their intellectual proweress but are just so dumb because they have no street smarts. They have a hard time understanding its not what you know but WHO you know that makes the difference in life. Anyways I'm kind of just rambling. Point is quiet bitchy nerdy people are annoying. They usually have horrible social skills and cant seem to understand why they don't have a lot of friends. They never have anything interesting to add to a conversation or social scene and many times clam up in public around people with actual personalities. Quiet bitchy people don't actually have interesting personalities. Their whole personality is based on criticizing things and people to look cool and complaining about how the they dont fit into society and everything thinks they are weird. Moreover, they are sore losers and most importantly unremarkable IMO. STAY AWAY FROM THESE FREAKS FROM HELL.
I love NYC
Fat chicks are annoying
Okay, so the stereotype seems to be that the pretty girls are bitches, and all the girls with great personalities are ugly/fat.
However, over the years, I have actually encountered the opposite of this effect. This is quite a broad generalization to make, but it seems that all the fat/ugly girls I meet are the most irritating and annoying. They tend to be loud-mouthed, never shut up about things that nobody cares about, and just generally don't realize how much that everybody else hates them.
Or maybe they do. Maybe they've become this way because everybody does hate them. Maybe it's a reaction to how people treat them -- since people ignore or condescend to them because they are ugly/fat, maybe they counter it by being even more assertive and annoying, so that they will get more attention.
But whatever. I don't care. The point is that the only nice girls I meet are also pretty and cute, and most of the irritating bitches are fat. Go figure.
However, over the years, I have actually encountered the opposite of this effect. This is quite a broad generalization to make, but it seems that all the fat/ugly girls I meet are the most irritating and annoying. They tend to be loud-mouthed, never shut up about things that nobody cares about, and just generally don't realize how much that everybody else hates them.
Or maybe they do. Maybe they've become this way because everybody does hate them. Maybe it's a reaction to how people treat them -- since people ignore or condescend to them because they are ugly/fat, maybe they counter it by being even more assertive and annoying, so that they will get more attention.
But whatever. I don't care. The point is that the only nice girls I meet are also pretty and cute, and most of the irritating bitches are fat. Go figure.
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
QUOTES
For all of you who talk about me thanks for making me the center if your world.
The way I see it is the more people that hate me, the less I have to get along with.
Always forgive you enemies. Nothing annoys them more.
Be yourself. No one can ever tell you, you're doing it wrong.
In a world where you can be anything... be yourself.
Each of us represents a star in Heaven. Sometimes we shine with the rest, sometimes we twinkle alone and sometimes, when we least expect it, we make someone else's dreams come true.
People think it is holding on that makes you stronger, but sometimes it's letting go.
Stand up for what you believe in, even if you're standing alone.
You laugh because you think I'm different I laugh because you guys are all the same.
Keep the pictures they never change only the people in them do.
If you have something to say, say it to my face, not behind my back.
If you ever hurt me... you get it back 10 times worse.
They hate me and rate me simply because they ain't me.
It is better to be hated for what you are then to be loved for what you are not.
Every new day is another chance to change your life.
Don't worry about me or what I do. What happens in my life has nothing to do with you. So keep your mouth shut and stop talkin' shit, because I'm sick of you bitchin' and all you bullshit.
A lot of teenagers are people who express a burning desire to be different be dressing exactly alike.
Do what you think is right and to hell with your popularity.
Keep your friends close but keep your enemies closer.
Never explain: your friends don't require it, and your enemies won't believe you anyway.
Shit happens and people bleed. (My friend Emily said these about getting in fights)
Here I am; if you don't like me, the worse for you.
Do your thing. Be what you are. If you don't know what you are, find out.
I never fucked anyone over in my life who didn't have it coming to 'em. ~ Scarface
I feel like I am sitting in a room full of people that I love, and you know what, they just don't care that I love them. They don't care whether or not I live or die. To them I'm just another girl, just another stranger. To me, they are my best friends, the only people I have left. (This is how I used to feel, all the time)
I'm only me. That is all I can be. No more, no less, don't second guess. I love, I live, I laugh, I cry. I've wished sometimes that I could die. Some days I'm funny, others I'm not, sometimes I'm in overdrive and I can't stop. You may not like me, but that's okay because this is me and how I'll stay.
You want to know who I really am? Yeah, so do I.
No one is normal, there are just a lot of weird people with things in common.
The people who really care won't hurt you, but if they do, you'll see it in their eyes, for they'll be hurting too.
You talk it, we live it, you start it, we end it. Your fuckin' right we did it.
Smile it scares people.
Stop trying to impress other people, they're more screwed up then you think.
Live your life without regret, don't be someone who they'll forget.
Always smile it makes people wonder what you're up to!
If being sane is thinking there's something wrong with being different... I'd rather be completely fucking mental.
People laugh at the way I dress, but that will be the secret to my success: I didn't look like anyone.
Makeup is only the icing on the cake - it doesn't create your personality or your being.
People are gonna talk about me, especially when they envy me, I might as well let them talk, because I affected their lives, they didn't affect mine!
All the ways you wish you could be, that's me, I look like you wanna look, I fuck like you wanna fuck, I am smart, capable, and most importantly, I am free in all the ways that you are not. ~ Fight Club
You have enemies? Good. That means you've stood up for something, sometime in your life.
Our lives are shaped by those who love us and refuse to love us.
Same shit, different people.
I don't try to be candy coated. I don't try to walk on eggshells. I am what I am. Love me or hate me. ~ Pink
Live right now, just be yourself. It doesn't matter if it's good enough for someone else.
Maybe some people just aren't meant to stay in our lives forever, maybe some people are just passing through. It's like some people just come through our lives to bring us something, a lesson we need to learn, and that's why they are there. (I have this on my wall)
Even the people who never frown eventually breakdown. ~ Linkin Park
Everyone wants to feel normal, but I don't think anyone ever does.
In the end you'll see who's fake, who's true and who would risk it all just for you.
Never long for anyone from the past. There is a reason why they never made it to your future.
I laugh, I love, I hope, I try, I need, I fear, I cry, and I know you do the same things too, so we're really not that different me and you.
You have to be yourself. Be very honest about who you are. And if people like you, that's fine. If they don't, their loss.
We judge ourselves by what we feel capable of doing, while others judge us by what we have already done.
If you want to be different, try being yourself.
I know I'm not perfect. I can't pretend to be, but before you point your finger make sure your hands are clean. (I said this quote to a girl at my youth group)
All the ways you wish you could be, that's me ,I look like you wanna look, I fuck like you wanna fuck, I am smart, capable and most importantly, I am free in all the ways you are not.
I am who I am and people can take it one way or another... but at least I'm living honestly.
There will always be people you can't believe you were friends with, boys you can't believe you kissed, and people you can't believe you lived without... people change but if you're lucky a certain few will change you.
It's not that we don't belong, it's that we've learned we don't need to.
When people talk listen completely. Most people never listen.
Assert your right to make a few mistakes. If people can't accept your imperfections, that's their fault.
The problem is not the problem, the problem is your attitude about the problem. (Also that youth group)
I may only be one person, but I can be one person who makes a difference.
Don't ever let anyone make you believe that you don't deserve what you want.
When all the world is telling you 'no', tell yourself 'yes' ten times louder.
Never be bullied into silence. Never allow yourself to be made a victim. Accept no one's definition of your life; define yourself.
A girl who lost her reputation and never missed it.
I could care about where you go or what you do but I can't... my dear, I don't give a damn.
Don't threaten me, there are things worse then death, and I can do all of them.
It's not getting what you want, its wanting what you've got.
So try to stomp on me, try to douse my inner flame, try to squash every ounce of beauty I hold within me. You won't succeed.
Being a bitch means I won't compromise what's in my heart. It means I live my life my way. It means I won't allow anyone to step on me.
When I speak my mind, think my own thoughts, do things my what, stand up for myself, my beliefs, or for those I love they call me a bitch.
I'm shy, I'm quiet. I'm an angel in disguise. I'm loud. I'm noisy. I'm a devil inside. You think I'm an innocent girl, so lets make a bet, because if that's what you're thinking, you don't know me yet.
Don't try to fix me, I'm not broken.
In your life, you meet people. Some you never think about again. Some, you wonder what happened to them. There are some that you wonder if they ever think about you. And then there are some you wish you never had to think about again. But you do.
Look at me. You may think you see who I really am, but you'll never know me.
There's a smile on my face but I don't know why it's there... I put it on to satisfy all the people that don't even care.
Some people will say you are going the wrong way when it is simply a way of your own.
From this day on... when I look back on the past... I will smile... and say to myself... I never thought I could do it... but I did... I over came all the people who tried to bring me down.
I'm trying to make myself better, and this time - I'm doing it for me, so stop bringing me down, - I'm not the person you want me to be!
Some people try to understand, but nobody can know what living like this is like.
No one can see the pain what we hide, they're happy for us to keep it inside, our fear is our own; they don't want to know. Why should we involve them; why should it show.
If we weren't so afraid to let go we wouldn't feel so free when we finally did.
People think I'm crazy, but actually I'm just bored.
I may not look that strong, but don't piss me off, you won't know what hit you.
Free thinkers are dangerous.
When life kicks you in the ass, roll up your sleeves and kick it back. Never let someone bring you down when youre up and never sink to a lower level to be something or someone you're not. You never have to impress someone that you don't like.
I don't care what you think of me... it couldn't be half as bad as what I think of you.
Do you know what it's like to be me? Go through something not everyone can see? Do you know what it's like to walk in my shoes? Please stop judging me simply because I'm not you.
Thank God for those people that question everything.
In life God doesn't give you the people you want, instead He gives you the people you need. To teach you, to hurt you, to love you, and make you exactly the way you should be.
Did it surprise you that I am not who you thought I was? Did it surprise you to find that I don't exactly stand for what you thought I stood for all along? Did it surprise you to find that I'm not exactly how I played myself out to be? That the person you thought I was is actually nothing to what I am.
Everyone sees who I appear to be but only a few know the real me, you only see what I choose to show there's so much behind my smile you just don't know.
Just because someone tells you that you can't do something doesn't mean you have to listen.
I wish people would quit telling me I can do anything I want. I never thought I couldn't.
It isn't the problem along the way that make us or break us. It's how we learn to stand and face them that makes the difference.
Too many people try to fake their way through life. That's why the real ones shine so brightly.
The only thing worse then being hated is being ignored. At least when they hate you they treat you like you exist.
How can she be truthful when everything she is, is a lie?
Just remember, when you're floating up and up in your bubble that bubbles have a habit of bursting, the higher you climb, the further you have to fall. (This IS the chick from youth group, everyone thinks she does no wrong)
I just like playing games with people, I always hope there'll be someone smart enough to see through me but you're all so stupid.
Life is too short to be distracted by the opinions of others.
Sorry you can't define me, sorry that I speak my mind, sorry if I don't fake it, sorry I come too real, I'll never hide what I really feel.
Sorry if I'm not perfect. Sorry I don't give a fuck. Sorry I just know what I want. I won't let you break me. Think what you want.
People spend too much time finding other people to blame too much energy finding excuses for not being what they are capable of being, and not enough energy putting themselves on the line, growing out of the past and getting on with their lives.
The question isn't 'who is going to let me'; it's 'who is going to stop me'.
Stop trying to fit in, when you were born to stand out.
Cling to your imperfections, they are what make you unique.
I don't fear your judgment 'cause I already know who I am.
Reality is for people who lack imagination.
Don't put words into my mouth. I've got plenty to say. Don't tell me how to live my life, I do things my way.
It seems that different people have an idea of what I am, and what I should be. And then there's me.
People are funny: They spend money they don't have, to buy things they don't need, to impress people they don't like.
Conformists look around and follow closely; Nonconformists look around and do the opposite. Individualists don't look around a lot.
Be more concerned with your character than your reputation because your character is who you are and your reputation is what people think of you.
Those who dance appear insane to those who cannot hear the music.
What you think is what you are. What you peruse becomes your reality. ---Babylon_11
As time goes by, life has a way of rearranging itself. People enter your life, and inevitably, they leave as well. Things have a tendency to happen that can turn your world upside down. You’ll come to realize eventually, that even though things are different, you are as well.
People call me a feminist whenever I express sentiments that differentiate me from a doormat or a prostitute.---Daria
Cool use to mean unique, spontaneous, compelling. The coolest kid was the one that everyone wanted to be like but no one quite could because their individuality was so utterly distinct. Then 'cool' changed. Marketers got a hold of it and reversed it's meaning. Now you're cool if you're NOT unique. If you bear the unmistakable stamp of America. Hair by Paul Mitchell, Clothes by Abercrombie, Car by Lexus, Attitude by Nike. Cool is the opiate of our time and over a couple of generations we have grown dependent upon it to maintain our identies of unclusion.---Shorty4_11
Time goes by so fast; people go in and out of your life. You must never miss the opportunity to tell these people how much they mean to you. -Cheers
Contemplation often makes life miserable. We should act more, think less, and stop watching ourselves live.
People change its a part of life, but sometimes its easier to hold on to the memories of who they were... rather then to realize who they have become...
People talk about how great love is, but that's bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they're afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they're wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It's all in how you carry it. That's what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you're letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain.
People who want to share their religious views with you almost never want you to share yours with them.--- Dave Barry
An educated person is one who has learned that information almost always turns out to be at best incomplete and very often false, misleading, fictitious, mendacious - just dead wrong.
Believe you can, and you can. Belief is one of the most powerful of all problem dissolvers. When you believe that a difficulty can be overcome, you are more than half way to victory over it already - Norman Vincent Peale
Take chances... alot of them. Because honestly, no matter where you end up - and with who, it always ends up just the way it should be. Your mistakes make you who you are... you learn and grow with each choice you make. Everything is worth it. say how you feel - always . Be you, and be okay with it. It doesn't matter what any other person thinks.
Always be yourself no matter what because you don't
want people to remember you for something you're not.
want people to remember you for something you're not.
Take chances... alot of them. Because honestly, no matter where you end up - and with who, it always ends up just the way it should be. Your mistakes make you who you are... you learn and grow with each choice you make. Everything is worth it.
Say how you feel - always. Be you, and be okay with it.
All the world is a stage, And all the men and women merely players. They have their exits and entrances; Each man in his time plays many parts.
In life, think of mean people like sand paper. They may scratch you and hurt you, but at the end, you come out smooth and polished and the mean person is just worn and ugly.
I'm not even gonna get mad anymore. I just gotta learn to expect the lowest from people even the people I thought the highest of.
I am not like them... I am different... you could even call me unique. Unique because I am one of the few people who have morals and who have a heart that hates to see people suffer... I am different because when someone is down I help them up. And if I cant help them up. I go down with them... I am not like them because I find no pleasure in hurting other people... I am one of the few.
For once I don't care what you think about me... I don't care if you think my hair isn't right or my shoes don't match my outfit. I don't care that I don't fit into this cookie cutter high school prom queen category you seem to have. All I care about is that I'm me... and that I'm happy about it. For once I'm happy and secure in knowing that you can't take that from me, no one can
Those who are poor, smile at what they have, yet those who have good fortune, frown at what they do not have.
Those who are poor, smile at what they have, yet those who have good fortune, frown at what they do not have.
Remember that the people we hang with will have an impact on both our lives and our income. And so we must be careful to choose the people we hang out with, as well as the information with which we feed our minds.
Remember that everyone you meet is afraid of something, loves something, and has lost something.
I'm not perfect, I never tried to be. I've made mistakes. I've taken the easy way out. I've lied to my friends. I've hidden the truth so many times from so many people. I've hurt people, and I've even done it on purpose. I've left people behind. I've spread rumors. I've said things that I didn't mean. I'm no better than anyone, anywhere. I'm human. I have faults, and I'm not afraid to admit that. I want to change, but I won't. Because that's what we do. That's what we've always done. We list our faults like a grocery list, and we move on, expecting everything to somehow change itself. It never will. I will never change. I will never be perfect. I will always make mistakes. I'll, more often than not, take the easy way out. I will lie, hide the truth, hurt people, leave people behind, spread rumors, and say things I don't mean for the rest of my life.--- jeneveve
Unperfect. That's what you can call me. After all I am me, and don't fit a certain category. I'm just a girl who lives life day by day and always manages to put a smile on my face. Even if that day I'm a complete mess.
You try to see the best in everyone. But unhappy people are some of the hardest people to like. And that's because they don't like themselves much.
When people who don't know you hate you,
that's when you know you're the best. --- Paris Hilton
that's when you know you're the best. --- Paris Hilton
I don't forgive people because I'm weak, I forgive them because I'm strong enough to know that people make mistakes.
I'm not a perfect girl. My hair doesn't always stay in place
and I spill a lot of things. I'm pretty clumsy and sometimes I
have a broken heart my friends and I sometimes fight and
maybe some days nothing goes right. but when I think about
it and I take a step back... I remember how amazing my life
truly is and that maybe, just maybe - I like being imperfect.
and I spill a lot of things. I'm pretty clumsy and sometimes I
have a broken heart my friends and I sometimes fight and
maybe some days nothing goes right. but when I think about
it and I take a step back... I remember how amazing my life
truly is and that maybe, just maybe - I like being imperfect.
I don't wanna be like them, all hair and make-up and short skirts, and all that, well, perfectness. I don't want all the boys drooling over me. I don't want any of that. I just wanna be me. I'm true to myself and that's all that matters. If guys like me for who I am, well then that's great... I know I've succeeded.
When you judge someone else, It doesn't define who they are, It defines who you are.
Remember all of the good times and all of the special people that were with you during them. Let go of the past, but don't forget it because there are a great many things that can be learned from what you have been through. And most importantly: follow your heart, stand up for what you believe in, and take your own path always doing what you want to do.
When exactly did we go from being kids to just being people, I'm not sure. I do know that it's not about turning a certain age or graduating from school. It happens when you're not paying attention. We go from playing with our friends to playing with our friend's feelings. Without our knowledge or consent childhood slips away in the night and our innocence escapes us and we wake up one morning to find we have become who we are.
The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes their way. Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched, and those who have tried; for only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives.
There's a little bit of bad in the best of us, and a little bit of good in the worst of us. So none of us, bad or good, have any right to say anything about any of us.
The reason people find it so hard to be happy is that they always see the past better than it was, the present worse than it is, and the future less resolved than it will be.
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